undertale, the end

[yuumurakirika]

I have a lot of feelings about this game. Not enough thoughts…

But, I think more than anything, I am attached to that world. The possibility of that world, with a society of people who don't do evil things. A monster can be sad, or angry, but, they don't want to hurt and kill, unless humans are threatening.

Really, even though I'm human, I wished for "the end of humanity" more than one time. But, I don't think all humans are evil. All humans have a flaw in their SOULs, but, they still can love as well as LOVE. If we choose to love, then, we can escape from our underground, too.

I didn't want to take the monsters to the human world. It can be beautiful, but, it can be terrible. Humans have the ability to turn off our power of love. We do it when we are terrified. It's not as simple as a switch on your back, but, we hide our SOULs somewhere deep inside ourselves, so that they do not have to look at the evil of the world.

We create a "front". The face that looks at evil and does not falter. The face that can bear the world.

(I don't really mean "front" like "plural", but, In the humans' world, most of us have such a face. Sometimes plural systems are created to make that "face" exist, but also it just means "a mask". ….This word also has a different meaning now… ;w; I give up.)

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Anyway…. I like the game a lot. I think, it's more like an art installation than a video game. The actions of the player carry meaning.

I think that, at the end, it forces you to step away. "This is not your place." Not in a harsh way, but, the truth is that I can't live in that world. Along with [spoiler character]'s end, it's a downer….

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But, where then is my place… I wonder.

I am trying, always, to look to the future. Hope… determination… those are the things that humans have.

Sometimes, those words mean things that feel happy. Sometimes, they mean, "to keep walking forward, because there is no other choice".

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[coffeevore]

All of this, pretty much.

I found I couldn't really step away, in particular from him... I couldn't believe that there would be a "happy ending" for everyone but him. He knew what fate awaited him in the end and yet he didn't hesitate to give up his power. It was heartbreaking. I spent the whole game wanting to teach him better, and then, at the end, he couldn't keep anything. Not even his love for everyone-- even though he retains just enough of it to miss it and to be upset that it's gone, and I could relate to that well enough that I understand why he tried to... why he discovered the save and load files. He's immortal and he's like that forever. It didn't feel right.

For months almost the only thing I did with myself was look at Undertale fan art and have feels. I also didn't want to leave that world. I stepped into it thinking it was just going to be a fun little game that appealed more to the tumblr teens than to adults. But when it came time to leave, I didn't want to remove myself from the mindset of being in the monster world. I didn't want to go out and face complicated problems. I wanted to be in a place where everything is just that simple, and you can deal fairly and get along with anyone if you try.

In the end, we are forced to step away-- that's exactly true, and that's the terrible and hard part. There's a definite note of how we don't belong with them and don't deserve them. Maybe we don't. It occurs to me that I wouldn't wish to inflict my imperfect self on the monster world. I've lived among humans all my life and my attitude reflects that, and I wouldn't want the monsters to have to deal with me. And who am I to say I deserve that kind of treatment? I don't deserve it; I just want it. It's not unfair that we are forced to leave the world, but it is sad.

[yuumurakirika]

Yes, exactly... you said it well.

It feels like, in that case, it's harshly saying that you can't save everyone, but, also, it wants you to want to save everyone... I would really believe that there was another ending, if you didn't say anything. To be without feeling care, but, know that something is missing... I also know that feeling. To imagine that forever is too cruel... it's just another way of saying Hell. It's way too cruel.

If you are faced with Hell, of course you'd become a nightmare creature, because, that's the only kind of creature that can survive in Hell. If your heart falls into that pit, to get destroyed over and over, eventually, you have to stop caring, find a way to justify it, or become terrified from trauma... or, maybe all three.

I agree that we wouldn't want to spoil the monster world. That's why I didn't want to tell the monsters about guns. Really, I can't imagine such a business as mine could exist in that world, and, I'm glad of it.

We don't deserve it... I like to think that there's a message in the game about, caring even when people don't deserve it. Of course, you can't do it always, but, the theme of forgiveness is so strong. So, I hoped for a message like that.

Especially because, I can imagine why someone would climb Mt. Ebott. When you said, "maybe the child had a bandage before they fell", it made the most sense to me. When I was a child, if someone had told me about a magical mountain that you can climb and never come back, of course I would have done it....

But in the end, it would not be right... Humans falling into the world is what caused the problems in the first place.

"Not unfair, but it is sad". That's it, really.